I'm sorry for being so down. But I'm busy ripping my eyes out of their sockets to stop the tears... It never ceases to amaze me how inane I've been. Everynight is almost the same... Some with tears... some with the thought of sacrifice for anothers gain, most night's barely with any happiness. A tear falls down, and yet my heart remains still. More tears are shedding and I'm buried 10 feet under. I can hear your voice, her voice, I can see my dreams, I can feel the pain within each of your hearts, and still I refuse to rise. My legs are stiff as are my arms and the stench of sorrow runs through my veins. Mirrored my tears fall out my eyes as they do hers... I want to reach up and hold her, but I can't I've been made an abomination, made inhuman, made for destruction. A single scar rises up from my heart and mirrors the cloud, more and more scars rise, and the sky is pitchblack. There were many moments I thought you were the one but now I know you're not. You love someone, just like the girl before. If I stand It'll be on my broken shattered back. Everyone watches me as I rise to stare at the one who shredded my emotions... and still I fall in love with you. I'm standing so still my heart is lost in time as my thoughts swirl around us. I can only cry...