Friendship wasn't meant for convenience and neither was love. - Me

I'm falling apart no matter how together I am, a slow rolling pain is coming from my fingers as I type this, it strives through my heart and seizes it still. My head feels light and my heart feels heavy, thoughts of death... they're running rampant through me. Anger at this fucking media based society... I believe if I can get over seeing a dead person and blood... this world will going to burn.

I believe I'm going insane, but I can still admit I may be going insane... perhaps I'm not.

FUCK I want to scream and tear apart everything! I can't feel my arms my gut eats away at itself, my health declines faster my skin is paler, almost a shade of gray when I look in the mirror. I want so much to destroy everything. I want so much bleed for this society, to save it... I want to burn it down and force it to open those sealed eyes and hearts and rise from it's sinned ashes.

If provoked... I will kill you, if I don't, I'll make sure you feel the pain of a thousand diseased children, screaming for help.

Read me and look through their eyes. The eyes that search for hope with faith. They rely on words to survive, what else can a mother or father do besides give their child a loving heart. Without a home, where is their shelter... in their parents arms, hiding from the storms. Without food, what will they eat... The scraps the scavenge in the dumps, the shit we waste and take for granted, if they can't find the food, they eat the dying air. Without a doctor who do they turn to... their mothers and fathers, telling them that they'll somehow get better, someone will adopt them, someone will find a heart for them... lies... all lies... This world contains so much more pain and IGNORANCE, OBLIVIOUSNESS, AND NAIVE mother fuckers living their god damn selfish lives. FUCK YOU ALL! FUCK YOU! I'm not willing to wait for someone, I'm not willing to see more people die from starvation... Fuck you all for hording money like demons to a helpless soul.

I WILL kill you, I WILL scar you. I WILL NOT be takin lightly, NOT when there's pain in anothers eyes. I don't GIVE A SHIT ABOUT MY FUCKING LIFE! NO matter HOW MUCH you say I'll lose. I AM NOT YOU, you don't know shit about me. You don't know what I'll lose. List it all, I have my reasons for giving it up. If I can open your eyes and your heart... I'll do whatever it takes. I'll sacrifice my life and burn if it'll give those poor children hope.