Everything  has gone awry and I hate it! Today I was reminded of everything that went wrong in my life, but I remembered what I should've done instead. Go past the pain, it doesn't matter... but then again, it's hard to walk, much less crawl past all the pain as it all builds up, having a sister killed and having a dad that vanished... it doesn't go away by talking, it doesn't go away no matter how much pain you put yourself in, whether it's emotional or physical. Great, angst. another angst place. Well here's a poem for my mom...

The time you burned alive

you never knew it was a sin

as you stood there burning from within

You're standing tall and full of pride

Their life inside your hand

Slipping away as if a grain of sand

Rip the soul away

Tear apart all the joyful moments

With your unrelentless arrogance

Lost and dying in vain

The screams will echo

Now that blood begins to flow

It's too late but you can stilll change

Give up the arrogance you were born into

Abandon every hate you knew

There's something else to seek

It's waiting out there

So delicate, mysterious, and fair.