Friendship wasn't meant for convenience and neither was love. - Me

I lost my cellphone... And life is still awry. So. How much is hope worth...? Is it worth it that I get my hopes up around a girl I really like and just let my mind fall and shatter all over the floor in the end? Is it worth it when I look under my bed, car seat, clothes, laundry, desk, and even at work in hope my cellphone will pop up? Only to realize that I'm never gonna get to see my little one again? I love that phone...

(the following doesn't always apply to me... but it does happen. And it's a shame that it does.)

Is it worth it when I sit there for a job waiting to get hired at a job, only to find out, I'm not qualified, because of the color of my skin, the god I believe, my sexuality... because I'm me?

How worth it is it for a child to beg on the streets for food for her/him and their family... only to be denied by the cold hearts of thousands of people, and eventually bumping into someone that's willing to give him/her some food.

... Our problems are small in comparison and should be brushed away when we bump into another that is less fortunate than us. Admit it... not many people take a damn good look around them to appreciate what the fuck they have.

What the fuck happened to religion...? Don't they all have the same basis? Don't steal, don't rape, molest, murder, commit hate crimes... what happened... where did we stray? This reminds me of Boondock Saints:
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Conner: Decent men with loving families... they go home after work and the turn on the tv, you know what they see?... rapists, murderers, child molesters... all gettin out of prison.
Murphy: Mafiosos *gun clicks* Get caught with 20 kilos... gettin out on bail, Same fuckin day.
Conner: And everywhere everyone thinks the same thing... Someone should just go kill those mother fuckers
Murphy: Kill em all, admit it, even you've thought about it.

Conner: Now you will receive us
Murphy: We do not ask for your poor or hungry
Conner: We do not want your tired and sick
Murphy: It is your corrupt we claim
Conner: It is your evil that will be sought by us
Murphy: With every breath we shall hunt them down
Conner: Each day, we will spill their blood, till it rains down from the skies
Murphy: Do not kill, Do not rape, Do not steal, These are principles which every man of every faith can embrace
Conner: These are not polite suggestions, these are cause of behavior, and those of you that ignore them will pay the dearest cost
Murphy: There are varying degree's of evil, we urge you lesser forms of filth not to push the bounds and cross over into true corruption, into our domain.

And sheperds we shall be
For thee, my Lord, For thee
Power hath descended forth from thy hand
That our feet may swiftly carry out thy commands
So we shall flow a river for to thee
and teeming with souls shall it ever be
In Nomine Patris, et Fili, et Spiritus Sancti
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While I may believe the corrupted should die, and the hateful and deceitful should perish. There is no reason for me to become one of them.

I resent the fact that people are too stupid... nay, naive to believe that the world we live in is fine. Even though they may accept the world sucks, they go on with their life as if nothing bad ever happened... ignorance, the devils best friend.

While I believe myself Christian. I refuse to call myself so. Because typically that I have seen, Christians, ask and pray for themselves and their loved ones...

How can one call one's self Christian and a believer of the Lord and Savior, when they are too centered around what they know, to pray for the faceless... the dying and hurt. Most of all, pray for unknown, the strangers that you may see, pray for the ease of suffering in all people... pray for the enemies that you have created, or that have turned society against them.

In my mind... I will help all those that want to be helped. All those that need help, will be offered, I will not force my presence nor my thoughts and beliefs upon them, I will not shun them because of who they are, how they look, or what they believe.

I will merely speak what I believe and let them choose what they want to hear... because face it, that's all they'll ever hear.

"For they are the sheep and I am one and the same, we are but innocents, searching for one another to bring back into the herd. It is only when they become humans that they are dangerous, for the become prey to the corruption that lays within the land."