The following are bits that I don't think I've posted. Each piece means very much to me. So if you feeling like dissecting them and analyzing them, that would be greatly appreciated but just be constructive about it =).
THIS HOLIDAY:
Play the video, and read the lyrics around :37-:38
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XnetFTY51hY&feature=sub
(Chorus) :
I run from building to building
Giving my gifts from the heart
I give you a piece of my soul
Provide it with a home and a place to go
I'll write you the song
Though I know not the words
Just a place to belong
To replace this hurt
I'll give you a hand, a heart to say
I hope blessed be the day
for you this holiday.
I ride through the world finding a place
All the faces painted with depression
I swear I'll make them smile
Watch their expressions change
Hold them for a minute, for a while
I'll show them the dawn
And when I'm gone
I pray I'm worth the light
a demon with angelic intentions
To be honest I'm just human
with misconstrued perceptions
I strive to exist past a kiss
I live with a list to assist
those that consist of feelings
that have been so dismissed.
So forgotten are they
Those in a world beyond
I'll pray for them and for the one
A flow to bring a special girl a heart filled song
(Chorus)
I run from building to building
Giving my gifts from the heart
I give you a piece of my soul
Provide it with a home and a place to go
I'll write you the song
Though I know not the words
Just a place to belong
To replace this hurt
I'll give you a hand, a heart to say
I hope blessed be the day
for you this holiday.
(2x)
I'll give you a hand, a heart to say (Holiday, holiday, holiday
I hope blessed be the day holiday, holiday, holiday
for you this holiday. holiday, holiday, holiday)
I can write and I can sing
But what would it mean
if I couldn't open your eyes
Open your eyes, open your eyes
Past a disguise, a beard, suit and smile.
At last you know my lies
A tear, a drop, a tribute to those
lost all the while I strobe
in your mind existing as none.
I'm the same as you
I too get blue
With my heart imbued
I'll flow previews
discography to discord's calligraphy
Exist for monotony
Epitome of days on end
I start without end, again and again
But I am close to the last
The thought of what has passed.
I exist as appeal to the mass.
But take my hand and we'll surpass
these hearts of broken glass.
(Chorus)
I run from building to building
Giving my gifts from the heart
I give you a piece of my soul
Provide it with a home and a place to go
I'll write you the song
Though I know not the words
Just a place to belong
To replace this hurt
I'll give you a hand, a heart to say
I hope blessed be the day
for you this holiday.
(2x)
I'll give you a hand, a heart to say (Holiday, holiday, holiday
I hope blessed be the day holiday, holiday, holiday
for you this holiday. holiday, holiday, holiday)
I'll give you a hand, a heart to say
I hope blessed be the day
for you this holiday.
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MY PERFECT WINTER, TOGETHER FOREVER:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KeUNzbz6ROI&feature=related
There's a lot that I don't know,
A lot I haven't seen
There's a beach we haven't found
A sky with a lucid red morning shroud.
A place we haven't kissed,
There's so much I have missed
but here
In your arms, it feels like everything's perfect now.
It's perfect now.
We can stand together in the dunes of the Sahara,
Watch the ashes of time, fade away with forever
We can swim through the depths of the ocean
Feel the waves of passion with each breath of emotion
We can soar, sky dive over the Bermuda islands
But as we fall and fade, hand in hand, our hearts ascend.
It won't matter where I am,
As long I can hold you hand in hand,
Hold you close and never let go.
I'll hold you close and never let go.
I don't know how but when I look at the clouds
I can picture your face, the rain from your eyes
Ignites the pain inside, but we'll dance through the night like fireflies
I'll fly across the globe, as far as my wings will hold
I'll hold onto our hearts like I hold onto hope.
Still ringing now, inside my head
are the words I first spoke,
Hello, hello, it's nice to meet you Winter Day.
So find it in your heart to hold my hands and together we'll escape.
We'll escape.
It's perfect now.
It's perfect now.
We can stand together in the dunes of the Sahara,
Watch the ashes of time, fade away with forever
We can swim through the depths of the ocean
Feel the waves of passion with each breath of emotion
We can soar, sky dive over the Bermuda islands
But as we fall and fade, hand in hand, our hearts ascend.
It won't matter where I am,
As long I can hold you hand in hand,
Hold you close and never let go.
I'll hold you close and never let go.
Hospital beds aren't fitting for Angels
I kiss your cheek and stay by the bedside table
They say hold on, I don't know if I'll be able
Still you fight for your life, so I'll do what I can. Lock our lips and lets be stable
I'll hold onto hope like I hold onto faith
Watch as the sun sets upon your face. See our son peekin in from the window
I'll hold your hand an I won't let go
It's still shaking, my hand in yours
So lead on, where ever you go I will follow.
I'll kiss, kiss, your gentle hands one more time
So please baby, please wake up and let your eyes be enveloped by mine.
Enveloped by mine.
It's perfect now.
It's perfect now.
We can stand together in the dunes of the Sahara, (Won't matter where I am)
Watch the ashes of time, fade away with forever (As long as I can)
We can swim through the depths of the ocean (Hold you hand in hand)
Feel the waves of passion with each breath of emotion (Hold you close never let go)
We can soar, sky dive over the Bermuda islands (I'll hold you close)
But as we fall and fade, hand in hand, our hearts ascend. (And I'll never let go)
It won't matter where I am,
As long I can hold you hand in hand,
Hold you close and never let go.
I'll hold you close and never let go.
It won't matter where I am,
As long I can hold you hand in hand,
Hold you close and never let go.
I'll hold you close and never let go.
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THIS IS THE WAR:
Starts when the gun fire goes off:
http://www.youtube.com/user/NickMDC#p/u/19/zOCeQe1eoJo
This is the war
This is war
This is war
This is the war.
There's so many bullets flying by me.
I'm blinded as the flashes explode, all around me
Engulfed in the gulf of the wave, I try again to save face
I enter the place where I pass through the realms
holding down helmet and protecting the helm
My feelings amiss I've become overwhelmed
I watch it replay all over on film
I can't believe I was once among one of them.
Heroes of past who strive to outlast
the blood clotting up in their systems
They're drowning in their own blood I miss them.
Each and every soldier,
Every man, every woman
Every brother, sister, mother or father, to me I miss yah.
Each and every one that fought with their life
Covered grenade, or died at the hand of a knife
Please understand that we're still liven in strife
but we are not full of depression, hate, and demise
For the gift that you gave to protect the sun on our face
I can never replace that valor you've shown on this stage
The stage we create so we can escape the fingers on triggers
taking a life of another for duty's honor,
I'm honored to be one amongst yah.
Though I'm not a soldier
And though I can sit here
And reminisce about the stars I stand under
I choose to remember you and all that you gave
Because every footstep I make
Depresses me when every step taken
Is another grave, where bodies are lain.
This is the war.
This is war.
In the day I had lead a civilian life
But at night I can still hear them cry
the children with no parents
Just crawling poor it's apparent
In death the pain we all share it
But we walk about blind and choose not to hear it
I'm told to shut up and be patient
But I don't want to wait for it
Since I'm lost in the moment
About how their life goes around
Bullets passing and I'm lost to the sound
of shells blasting through bodies
I believe that I'm ready
Just take me.
Just take me.
I'm a student who's silent
a father in drunk violence
A mother who's lost judgment
A brother's ignored talent
that was lost to the influence.
The sister and her brilliance
forgotten, her genius reminiscent.
I am all of those that have lost their way
The beaten path, so shattered with wrath
the pain behind masks, hiding their last
the last of the memories that,
we hid under the lock and the key.
We open at night and lose all self control
Down memory lane we stroll
Holding on every bit of their soul.
Though I'm not a soldier
And though I can sit here
And reminisce about the stars I stand under
I choose to remember you and all that you gave
Because every footstep I make
Depresses me when every step taken
Is another grave, where bodies are lain.
This is the war.
This is war.
To what ever side that you choose
To whoever family's left bruised
To every soldier that death has set loose
and to everyone's mind that's been so abused
You are not alone and you never were
We are your mother, father, brothers and sisters.
We are your uncles, aunts, nieces, and nephews.
Though our visions are skewed
We will always be friends,
we'll bleed out with you straight through the end.
I salute you when you walk pass that door.
Because this son... this is war.
This is the war.
This is war.
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TO MY SISTER:
Lyrics start at the very beginning of the song, right off the bat =).
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b1ugYzl29L0
And I, I'll dream of a better place,
the tears stream down my face.
And maybe I'll finally understand,
that we'll meet sometime again.
I've watched you die… over,
over and over again.
I'll rewind that beautiful smile.
Struggle through your birthday tapes
as my heart tries to hold it's shape.
I remember the autumn leaves,
rewind it to watch you leave.
I could never, I know I'll never.
Never be the brother you were looking for.
Should you ever, look down on me, maybe then you'll see
that I'm still grieving in my dreams.
The nightmares seal the seams.
The light dares to heal the screams.
I keep rethinking of what I'm missing.
I keep believing it's you I'm hearing.
When I feel that angelic voice singing.
My heart skips a beat, maybe you're still alive,
still alive so I'll run back in time.
Try to be there for you, make your life worthwhile.
But these are just memories
flooding over me.
And I, I've watched you die... over,
over and over again.
I'll rewind that beautiful smile.
Struggle through your birthday tapes
as my heart tries to hold it's shape.
I remember the autumn leaves,
rewind it to watch you leave.
Sometimes at night I'll watch the stars,
rearrange them to where you are.
Imagine that you're always there,
there to watch over me.
I pretend that I'm always,
always been who you've wanted me to be.
But I, I'm not able to see
what's right in front of me.
A mother who's struggling
to try make the ends meet,
so I don't end the way you did.
But the way you left, I'll never forgive myself.
I refuse to let you become another memory
on dust covered shelves.
I sit alone because I'm finished.
This photograph of you's tarnished.
They're decorated by hearts and mirrors.
Reflections of the love and pain
that's grown since you've left me here.
I'm holding on, as best as I can.
But in my mind, I can see you dance.
You never had a chance
for a beautiful dress entrance.
You never had that chance
to fall in love, in romance.
The only thing they gave, a chance,
for you to end in a dream sequence.
And I, I've watched you die... over,
over and over again.
I'll rewind that beautiful smile.
Struggle through your birthday tapes
as my heart tries to hold it's shape.
I remember the autumn leaves,
rewind it to watch you leave.
Rewind to watch you hold that leaf
Remember each year as autumn leaves
While my heart imitates the shape
Of the one you made in the birthday tape
It reminds me of your smile
Over and over again
It kills me to see you die before your brother.
Be safe, blessed where ever you are
because I'll be here for you forever.
She knows she's hot and she can strut the stuff
Though it's never sufficient, never enough
Most times she's ugly and in that she believes
That no other girl can be as ugly as she
She spends her life trying to find a "we"
To be that little princess daddy said she could be
But she found love in all the wrong arms
Even when her mind was alarmed
She still believed that she was loved
That she would marry and be your betrothed
She had faith that you were there to protect her
That you were her friend and she was secure
But those thoughts had never occurred
Destruction of her through anger and slander
She turned her back on something she believed
In absence of God she wore her heart on her sleeve
Even now she hears whispers riding the wind
Of a dumb lost girl that's drowning in sin
Though you hide her away and shoot her down
You can't hide an angel beneath the ground
She was always there to make you smile
To hold your hand though all the while
You back stab her and call her names
Running around playing gossip games
Now her names spread through the dirt
and you pretend like it didn't hurt.
You should be ashamed of what you did
King taking Queen from behind on the grid
Don't trip and play that it's fine
This shit ain't gonna take it's time
Because a mind that's scarred may never heal
How the fuck do you think you would deal
When force fed a nightmare that just turned real
She needed somebody better by her side
A kind hearted friend to treat her right
but that day's gone, she's six feet down
But your stupid sorry ass is still around
One day you'll get what you deserve
When someone whoops your ass and brings you back to earth.
Like a delicate flower in the wind
Humanities innocence is caught in a gale of sin
A hurricane of mental states, dissipate
In the fire fight as the flames disintegrate
The lifeless bodies
As hate incarnate is embodied
by a war that escalates
While everyone plays stupid
Hiding in such masquerades
Instead of standing to prove it
To prove such a soul can exist
In an overwhelming thunder storm
When that soul decides to stand
From that soul's brilliance a rising star shall be born
Should we come close to drowning in the flaring sand
That hope and guiding light
Will ignite us through the night
We shall rally and stand the pressing waves
Let it crash and wash away past wastes
And when all is gone we will rebuild
And after all the lessons of peace we have instilled
into our children, settle in their bustling minds
We may come to understand and come to find
That the brand new day and rising dawn
Gave us hope and inspiration before we're gone.
That single smile that made the struggle worth while
Belongs to a warrior's child
Growing up wondering if it's worthwhile
To live with a single parent
And all the burden they inherit.
While the rest stand blind and dumb
Living recklessly and disgracefully numb.
A soldiers life, isn't worth stupidity and denial.
They're the mothers and fathers
Sons and daughters
Brothers and sisters
Who lay their lives for our new day
And we treat our lives like shit and give it away.
Think again before you speak
That they fight for reasons weak.
They fight because of orders
In times create disorder
But in their eyes it's to unite
One for all and all for one against this endless blight.
I've been sick for over a week now XD, hitting a fever wednesday in the middle of the night Ahahahahahah! Good stuff huh?
Rawrs!
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